THE SOUL
Name:Wisely Thomas Wee
Age: 29
DOB: 8th Jan 1980
Zodiac Sign: Capricorn
Occupation: Assistant Marketing Manager
Industry: Engineering
I Am
~ Just a simple guy
Looking for a simple girl
To have a simple love
To lead a simple life
Which is the hardest thing to do~
I Love
~ Music
~ Bowling
~ Sleeping
~ Eating
~ Coffee & Tea
~ Freedom
I Want
~ To complete my degree asap
~ To get my driving license
~ To build on my career
~ To get my own car
~ To get my own house
~ To find my simple girl
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
I'm just not worth it...
As I mentioned, it was a day full of emotions.
During the time Darling sms me and she was on the phone with a friend, guess what? Esther called.
I paused a moment when I saw my phone ringing. I know I will pick it up. I just said "Hi".
She asked me if I wanna talk to Amber. Of course I do! I simply misses her to the max! Amber was giggling away on the phone. I felt so happy and touched to hear her voice. Though she didnt really said alot of things, but she called me "Durain Head Kor Kor" suddenly. Haaa... That was like DUHZ! But yet so familiar. She then suddenly called me "Smelly Kor Kor". Right... So all along I was a "Smelly Durain Head Kor Kor to her". Her laughter and voice, adding to Esther's voice, brought my eyes watery.
I am not afraid to say I really missed them *Sorry Darling*
The time we spent together, was just like a real family and Amber Sweetie, was just like our daugther.
I knew its all in the past and its impossible to go back anymore. I knew it well enough. Seriously, I am glad I could still hear from Esther. I really appreciate her still willing to talk to me. She finally updated her blog but it was kinda depressing. I wonder what happened and I am still very concern over her..... even as a friend.
Coming to all these, thinking about Esther, thinking about Darling.. I felt lousy. *I told Darling I dont like her to use this word on herself, but I did myself.
I felt that I cant maintain a relationship long enough to last. Esther was the one and only I treated and been telling that she is my Wife-to-be. Darling was someone I really like and knowing how happy and fortunate a boyfriend I am that I can have a girlfriend like her.
Yet, the former has ended, with massive heartpains. The latter, is full of uncertainties and risks. My life... is just full of shit. I am in a mess. I disappoined Esther in a way... I added pressures and make Darling felt extra miserable.
Somehow, I felt I am a jinx, a jerk, a guy, not worth to be loved and to love...
Whats worth and whats not? Who can tell?
Can you tell me?
No... You dont have the rights.
我不配
The Soul feels @ 7:32 PM *~The Lost Soul~*
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