Lately... I have been listening to alot of songs in office.
Yes... Sad and slow songs... for the emo mood...
Until SS (my colleague) kept saying me...
"Thomas ah..你可以不要这样 emo 吗?你最近都好像很emo leh"
Haa... well.. looks like my colleague can also feel it huh?
Yeah... well... i must say, as I mentioned in my earlier post, i was really feeling down these days...
Yesterday, when I was on the way to PS with Darling in the train, I kept looking at her while she was playing PSP. Little did she know, or she might know that in my heart and mind, emotions were stirring up. To the extend of tears almost coming to my eyes.
Today, I also did the same thing, looked at her, kissed her head, smell her hair while she was playing. I was just thinking that I am glad, I have such a sweet and pretty Darling with me.
I just love looking at my Darling and appreciate her. telling myself how great it is to have her. Telling myself this is my Darling and I love her...
People who have seen me with her probably think.." WTF.. this kinda guy also got such pretty girlfriend..."
Well... So? Jealous? Go ahead!
I kept thinking in my mind.. How long can I hold on to this love of mine? I really dont know...
No matter how prepared I am... When the day comes... it will still be as devastating...
The feeling is just so so so helpless...
Darling bought me a 4 leaves clover handphone chain. She knows things havent been going well for me so she just hope to give me some luck. I really do need the luck..
But seriously, in love.. I can only pray and hope...
I bought her another book.. I think I did mention.
In total, I have bought her 4 books already. I den realised.. I should have written something inside everytime I bought her one book, including the dates. She said she can write it in for me, but it wont serve the purpose. It serves as a memorial value.Well.. Its ok... Maybe it wasnt that significant to other people ba...
Darling mentioned before wanting me to buy her library... Well... I seriously dont know how many more books I can buy for her. Library? I really dont know...
She has been blogging about him here and there in almost every post... Well... I closed my 2 eyes... I trying to close my heart and mind... but somehow... I felt it aching. Everytime she told me she might be meeting him, I just had a short change of mood. Pardon me, but I believe its normal. End of the day, what can I do? What can I say?
I asked for it...
We still have Genting trip, Thailand trip, Batam trip and Taiwan trip yet to go...
I think... soon... I can forget about it...
Ber and Yun Mei going Genting soon... hmph... ask you all wait but dun wan...
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Darling finally found the necklace I gave her for Valentines' Day, before we were attached. Its been lost for weeks. i am glad and she is happy its been found. Looking at her happy expression, i am really glad that some efforts of mine are still being appreciated.
For now, only thing I can do is to love her all I can and giving her the love she deserved from me.
Other than that, i dont really wanna think too much. Too afraid to think...
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Note to Esther... Dont need to bother about the arsehole anymore. Devil's calling, but be selective. You are out of it, braced up and move forward... There are much more people who appreciate you than you know. 加油!
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Its the 105 day today we have met up Darling... Are you still feeling my heart? Or tring not to feel too much instead? Will we be able to continue the days? Not for long ba... I just hope we will be able to spend abit more quality time to cover the quantity days...
Mr Wee loves you...
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I need a change in my life.. I need a better job, better pay. i wish I can end my studies soon. I need to bild up my career... need to support the family...
Too much things, too little time...
The limited me...
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Adding some images of me and Darling.. !st time i had pictures here...
Too much emotions... Just wanna add some sweet and happy images...
Time to sleep... nitez...