THE SOUL
Name:Wisely Thomas Wee
Age: 29
DOB: 8th Jan 1980
Zodiac Sign: Capricorn
Occupation: Assistant Marketing Manager
Industry: Engineering
I Am
~ Just a simple guy
Looking for a simple girl
To have a simple love
To lead a simple life
Which is the hardest thing to do~
I Love
~ Music
~ Bowling
~ Sleeping
~ Eating
~ Coffee & Tea
~ Freedom
I Want
~ To complete my degree asap
~ To get my driving license
~ To build on my career
~ To get my own car
~ To get my own house
~ To find my simple girl
Friday, August 1, 2008
Reflections
Some reflections... Not emo-ing k...
I realised my life, evolve around nothing...
Once I got single, realised that my daily life is kinda getting nowhere.
Of cos, work and studies aside...
After work, during weekends, I have simply nowhere to go and no one to go out with.
Yes, unless occasional weekends, Lai and CK jio me out for bowling.
Or certain Sundays meet up with Celeste.
Other than that, I practically got nothing to do.
Its that Tina is back for couple of months, then I have the chance to just meet her for coffee and chit chatting.
As mentioned in the previous post, at times I dont feel like going out.
Sometimes, its just so sianz...
You dont know who to go out with and dont know where to go as well...
Most people or rather friends out there are attached...
When you have friends attached, you know weekends are kinda hard to get them.
So well... I am just rumbling and all...
Maybe been feeling abit lonely..
As I mentioned, my mood has been fluctuating.
Oh well... Crap...
~*~
Was at Parkway 2 days back.
After a SCDF briefing, colleagues suggested go Parkway, before management meeting.
So went to the hawker to eat.
Things are just so so familiar...
So much things flashed past my mind.
Especially all the kinda memories I have with Esther and Amber.
I was thinking if I will bumped into Esther's mom.
But I didnt.
I thought it will be nice cos I will get to see Amber.
I miss Amber alot.
Its weird and amazing right?
Not my daugther or niece or what, just Esther's niece.
But she has been such a sweetie and cutie and we got along so well...
Haiz.....
Well, went to Parkway, I bumped into Sharon.
Not surprising, since she is working in Parkway.
Even if I dont bump into her, I would go and look for her and say Hi.
Still as chirpy as ever, she turned back after she wanna leave and asked me if she has put on weight.
Haaa......
The time spent with Esther, Sharon and Bryan together with Amber...
One of the best memories I have.
Was telling Yun about it and she said just think and move on.
Ya... What else can I do?
*small smile*
~*~
Last week, I told Yun and Mini something.
I dreamt about Lin 3 times for that week.
Twice on last Friday itself.
I figured that its maybe not I missed her or what.
Memories just flashed back when they feel like it.
Part of my mood probably comes from it.
It reminded me of my decision against my wish and how things turned out after that.
I think I just havent got over the fact of making a decision that makes me felt like I am betraying myself.
Looking back at the pictures taken in the past...
I realised I have taken the most pictures with Esther and Lin.
These 2 ladies did impact me alot in my course of relationships.
It also set me thinking about myself...
Of all I have done, love and efforts I have put it...
Nothing seems to matter?
Probably I aint worth...
Probably I am a lousy boyfriend.
Since both of them believe the fact and that their decision to leave me,
is right...
Through the 2 of them, I realised something.
You may not be a bad guy, you may be nice at times or what, but then, that doesnt mean you are the best.
Even a guy, whom others seen as not worth, who cant decide, who might be a jerk. (No names mentioned)
can be more missed and seen as a better person...
I cant say I am a good guy...
But the least, I felt that I have not done wrong to my gal.
Other than not able to provide as much, I believe other areas, I wont lose out to any guys.
But then again, its not a benchmark to justify anything.
Yun told me something which I felt perhaps it is the case.
Perhaps I have that kinda so called nice person...
Gals I have been have always have that kinda attentions from me.
Being nice and accomodating and all.
But due to the fact they got used to it, one word, one action wrong or doesnt seems approriate, decided the kinda of person I am and my fate.
Before anyone thinks I am complaining or pushing blames...
I am only saying perhaps..
I am not saying anyone is looking or really treating me this way.
Take it or leave it...
~*~
I felt that I havent been happy...
Really havent had anything that can really perk me up and make me smile from within.
I can only be thankful I am still alive and kicking...
I am still working and have some nice friends around...
Though I aint happy with my current state...
Cos even work is also full of crap...
I need a sign...
I need a direction...
I need...
A Miracle...
~*~
Friday...
9pm...
I am still in office...
No one to chill out...
Nowhere to go...
I am nobody...
Crap...
The Soul feels @ 7:49 PM *~The Lost Soul~*
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