THE SOUL
Name:Wisely Thomas Wee
Age: 29
DOB: 8th Jan 1980
Zodiac Sign: Capricorn
Occupation: Assistant Marketing Manager
Industry: Engineering
I Am
~ Just a simple guy
Looking for a simple girl
To have a simple love
To lead a simple life
Which is the hardest thing to do~
I Love
~ Music
~ Bowling
~ Sleeping
~ Eating
~ Coffee & Tea
~ Freedom
I Want
~ To complete my degree asap
~ To get my driving license
~ To build on my career
~ To get my own car
~ To get my own house
~ To find my simple girl
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
Emotions...
Its been another week since I blogged.
The past week has been a rather moody and emotional week, especially last night.
I have been really feeling moody and unhappy about things that have been going on or dragging on.
It had came to a point in my mind...
It doesnt matter how good and nice and wonderful a boyfriend you can be... as long as the heart is not with you... you are as good as an empty shell or rather.. holding to one.
But to the boyfriend at heart... He doesnt mind holding on to an empty shell for now. He can be that pillar for you to support on always. He doesnt give a damm and mind a single bit about the past. He dont mind all the shit, attitdues and hurt. he just didnt want you to get hurt. He just want to love you the way you deserved to be loved. Do you see it?
If you cant forgive yourself and still live in the past, how can the other pull you out if you still wanna force yourself back? There is no such things as impossible, its only how much you want to move on and find blissfulness.
You once mentioned you know how to pursue happines and I dont. When happiness comes, you shun away and left an idiot hanging. How long more can we hang on to this?
Why cant one person stayed solely just for that one person? Why flirt? Why ignore when you held the love in your hands? Why pull back when she's gone? How much hurt has been caused to the gal? Does a person know how much hurt will be caused to the gal for doing that? I farking hate this! Indecisive shit... Not fit to love someone at all... PHUI!
I also realised.. In a relationship, its either you be a Jerk or you can be an Idiot. Idiotic enough to believe in this damm thing call L.O.V.E and wish that it will work for you one day being with the one you love forever.
Or not, be the Jerk to F.L.I.R.T and H.U.R.T and laugh things off.
R/S has always been a killer for me... I used to believe alot in true love.. over coming hurdles and obstacles... When I love, I love hard. But times and times again, I was hurt, and forsaken. Love has been toying with my feelings over and over again. I have been screwed times cos of another person. How am I to believe it ever again?
Yun Mei told me I could make my own decisions.. But whats the point when end of the day, it will be overruled? Does my words, my decisions or even my existence served any purpose?
I dont know what else I can do and say. I have put in what I think I should and could but that doesnt spell reciprocate. Its the 2nd time, 2nd person who really used this word to tell me things.
I have closed both my eyes... My heart and mind is also closing already...
What more can I do? Where else can I stand and be?
Too much things in me and I cant put them in words...
~*~
I am sorry to someone that I havent been around for you when you were under the devil's claw. Now that everything is over, I just want you to get back on track and stand up and move forward again... I'll always be giving you my best support.
Hang in there...
~*~
站在天评的两端，一样的为难。
爱一个人好难
The Soul feels @ 10:57 AM *~The Lost Soul~*
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